Why R U? Because of Love? Chapter 02: The Kiss
“What is this again?” I don’t know what is wrong with my laptop, suddenly it won’t turn on, here, if I didn’t think I had to make a class report to my teacher today, I wouldn’t be nervous like this, “In conclusion, can I use it today?”
It gets frustrating every time I have to rush to do something and there is always a problem to hinder me.
I sat looking at my laptop for a while and finally, because I had to do some work, I decided to go to Ai’Zol’s room to borrow her laptop for an hour.
In Zol’s bedroom what is decorated expresses her style of writing, there is a picture of a Korean singer on the side of the cover, there are some Thai artists or celebrities who are male and female partners, in the corner of the bedroom is full of books and Y cartoons, this does not include the paintings Zol painted and designed herself.
Deep down and I am very proud of my sister but I don’t know why the thin line between me and her is so big that I can’t get better like her.
I reached Ai’Zol’s desk, about to walk away, unplug the laptop and take it to my own room but the image that appeared on the screen drew the initial attention to the screen, because what I saw is a file word, dozens of docs with my name and Ai’Saifah, this does not count the ones with Phii Fai and Ai’Tor, I’m not sure what my sister is doing with these names, in my heart but I pray not to be the way I thought.
But as I read what I hoped for waned less and more
“Fuck, what is this?” The whole love scene, kiss scene, or even a scene of men doing things like that, I don’t know where Ai’Zol got the idea of writing something like this, why are imaginary ideas so many? And see, Ai’Saifah and I kiss passionately…
What the fuck is this!!!!!
“Phii Zon?” The room owner voice rang after opening the door, “What are you doing? Are you messing with my laptop?”
“I don’t want to mess it up but my laptop is broken.”
“Then why don’t you go down and tell me first? Coming in like this, so rude, you know, Phii Zon.”
“Then if I don’t enter like this, I would probably never know what Zol is doing?” The listener did not answer me, Ai’Zol hurriedly walked over and picked up her laptop and hugged her tightly, as if I was afraid of stealing, “Zol, why are you doing this?”
“So… what did I do? Not seen doing anything.”
“Will you try that innocent face again, you my little sister know what you have done.”
“Let’s be honest, Zol, what are you thinking about taking me into a fictional character in the novel with Ai’Saifah? What is this about Ai’Tor again?”
Ai’Zol did not respond, she clenched her mouth as if she had never spoken about it.
“You have no answer, that’s fine but Zol has to erase these novels, also delete it in the publishing site, don’t think I don’t know you published this on the public site.”
“I will not delete…” After a long silence she finally opened her mouth to speak, “The name of my novel character might not be Phii Zon and Phii Saifah, or Phii tor, any Phii Zon friend, there are a lot of people with these names.”
“How could it not be us, Zol? When it has both names, faculty name and a lot of other things that are linked to you, so Zol hurry and delete him right away.”
“No.” Ai’Zol answered and embraced the laptop tighter, “I will not remove it, it takes a long time for me to write this much, I know how difficult it is for you to write each chapter, please Phii Zon, don’t tell me to delete these novels… Phii Zon.”
Aside from the sight of pleading, a tone that is normally hard is noticeably weaker but excuse me, let’s do it this much, who’s going to be weak?
“No, delete now.”
“Why is Phii Zon angry? Are you afraid that others will know about your secret relationship with Phii Saifah? What time are we living now?”
“Zol wait, who is dating who?”
“Phii Zon and Phii Saifah.”
“Hey Zol!! Stop being funny? I never dated him, never liked, plus hate him to death, Zol, so hurry up and delete the novel right now.”
“Phii Zon and Phii Saifah are arguing?” Zol’s expression looked so sad that her almost looked weird, I don’t know where she got this ideas from, “Phii Zon you have to be understanding and talk to your boyfriend. You have to learn to listen to each other.”
Not mistaken enough, she thinks she has the right to lecture me.
“Zol, I told you that me and he are not in a relationship.”
“How can you not be together Phii Zon, since I saw in my eyes that you two kissed.”
“Wait, what a kiss, never, you have gotten this completely wrong, you know? Shouldn’t you get to understand first?”
“The one who should be understanding is Phii Zon, because Phii Zon how can you reject it? The fact that I had seen with my eyes that the two brothers kissed is not a made-up thing.” Ai’Zol speaks in a confident tone, the look that she sent me was that she was ready to find fault with me
“Zol what day did you see? Don’t be misunderstand my tone doesn’t seem to flutter, right?”
“That day, the day before freshies welcome night, Phii Zon made an appointment for mom to be pick h up at the building of the school building, third gate of the Faculty of Engineering canteen.”
“Yes… So, what?”
“When mom was done picking up Zol, then drive to pick up Phii Zon over there…I called and texted Phii Zon many times but you refuse to respond, so I finally went down on my own and after that, Phii Zon should have already known what was going on.”
“Phii Zon and Phii Saifah you two were kissing in front of the bathroom, I didn’t want to bother the two of you but I really saw it and when your boyfriend saw Zol, he quickly came out and walked away.”
“You are silence because its real, isn’t it?”
“Phii Zon don’t lie to me and I understands it’s tough but since the two seniors are in a relationship, you don’t have to care about other people thinking, Zol, do they tease Phii Zon?”
“Its not the kind which you understands, because of the incident at that time he…”
It was an accident
Double Zon: I am waiting in the cafeteria, if you arrived before me, line me, tell me
I LINE’d into the family group, tell both mom and Ai’Zol where I was waiting
Double Zon: Tonight, is freshy night, where many students gather to enjoy a concert that takes place in the middle of the football field but because he is late at night and quite late, mother, I volunteered to help out at the university instead.
The voice prompts line sounded again, I picked up the phone and looked again, thinking that mum and Ai’Zol might have arrived but the person who line came to me is Ai’Junior instead
Junior: Ai’Zon, are you still in the cafeteria?
Junior: I walked past the Faai group a while ago, he told his friend to go around the third school building.
The Faai that junior talks about is someone I’ve been talking to for almost two months now, which in the past me and her have eaten and watched a movie but most of the time we just talking in LINE.
Junior: so when you said you will hurry and wait for your mother, actually, you were waiting for your girlfriend?
Junior finished the message and sent a line sticker to tease him like he did for the chance of having a fondling moment with the girlfriend, Faai and I actually didn’t have a date, today we only talked in the morning and why…
“Faai…” Ai’Junior doesn’t lie, Faai was really walking straight at the third school building but the building was quite dark, the building lights weren’t even bright like I was sitting around waiting for her, in the end, it was because of concern that I followed Faai to make sure she was okay.
But the sight that I saw after following them shocked me so bad
Faai was embracing a man, so that doesn’t look worse, but if the man who hugged Faai’s waist and walked into the bathroom was not Ai’Saifah… the Ai’Junior and Ai’Thai talked about.
Ai’Saifah and I are not close to each other to meet our face and say hello, we only know each other as a friend of a friend but being a friend of a friend, he should at least know which friend is chatting to which girl so we don’t have jealous rivalry, I wanted to see what Ai’Saifah doing, if he finds out that Faai and I talked to each other and still do it like this, it’s so bad cause you just don’t hit up your friend’s friends crush.
I came and stopped in front of the bathroom door that the two of them had just walked, walked around several times before deciding to knock on the bathroom door to check if Saifah and Faai were talking to each other, the first knocked round, no response sounded, the second round, I started to knock harder and harder but the harder I knocked, the more people inside didn’t seem to open the door for me anyway, finally, in anger, decided to kick the door with full force, kicking it a few laps in anger, the bathroom door opened.
“Ao… you are Ai’Thai friend, right? Is there something you want?” Ai’Saifah asked me in a doubtful tone but my eyes focused on the red hickies in his neck instead.
“What is it you want? Do you have anything you want to say? If you don’t have it, don’t interrupt me.”
“For fuck sake, is the person you’re going to…”
“So, who is it Saifah? Who?” I didn’t finish speaking yet, Faai came out of the bathroom first, “so…Zon.”
When Faai and I met each other’s eyes, she was full of tears
“Hey Faai.” I say
“I think the two of us are going on well… In conclusion, Faai, are we not?”
“Let’s talk.” Faai, who at first looked worried, changed her attitude by raising her hand over her chest with a feeling of tiredness instead, “But it didn’t mean I can talk to Zon alone… I also flirted with Saifah.”
“For real, how is this even right.” Ai’Saifah, who had been silent for a long time, spoke some, “so what is wrong with Faai chatting me up?”
“Well…” Aside from me who was already looking, Ai’Saifah was another one who sent a questionable expression to Faai, until she starts to worry again
“You are with Faai?”
“Answer me, who exactly did you talk to?”
“Uh… Ugh, the phone…” Faai suddenly took out the phone from her pocket, “I was waiting, I will go pick up my friend’s phone first, hello, hey…”
Faai finished speaking and hurriedly walked away from where the two of us stood there, I looked at her, followed by a feeling of imparting, it was bad and disappointing but would I want me to go after her afterwards? Probably not because what I saw was no different from being betrayed
“Fuck, what’s your problem?” Ai’Saifah suddenly crashed into my shoulder with great strength
“You… Blocking – the – path.”
“I can block… is it any of yours?” I could not be silent, I walked after Saifah, who also pretended to walk away, “Let’s talk for real, Saifah, you really didn’t know Faai and I chatting?”
“At least my friends like Ai’Thai or Ai’Ju who go in the same club as you, they should have told you a little, I was chatting to Faai.” Because for a man it’s taboo to go after a friend’s woman or, a woman of a friend of your friend is also a taboo
“They never said anything.”
“And even if you actually talked to Faai, it doesn’t mean that she doesn’t have the right to talk to other people, just talking… Don’t think you’re in a relationship with her.”
“What the fuck… Was it like you were still angry at Faai for talking to me? Then why do you sound like she hasn’t the right to talk to another person? I’m totally confused.”
“Then I asked, just tempted to accept the truth.”
“Are you and Faai were in a relationship?”
“Meeh…” Here they have talked for less than a week but what is she doing in the bathroom with him? I’ve been talking with her for a month and my hands haven’t gotten to hold onto her tits.
This world is too standard
She saw this guy is more handsome, taller then she chose him first like this…
“And she’s the one who made me come here too.” Saifah continues to speak
“You… need to take a good look at your own looks.” Ai’Saifah said looking at me from head to toe, “No woman will want someone like you to be her boyfriend, believe me na.”
“What did you say? Do you want say it again?”
“I said…” Saifah smiled at the corner of his mouth and moved in to whisper in my ear, “No woman will want someone like you to be her boyfriend.”
“Damn it Saifah!” I finished shouting at Ai’Saifah, then raised one hand and pulled his collar of the person in front of me but he got a hold of my hand first and there was also a face with eyebrows and eyebrows that you pissed the fuck outta me, “You ass, let me go.”
“No.” Ai’Saifah looked crossed, he shrugged and pulled my hand harder, he probably wanted to make fun of me but because I’m not as tall, as Ai’Saifah pulled harder and he made me move in until…
Our lips were directly joined together, I was glisteningly looking at Ai’Saifah’s face with an incredible feeling, Ai’Saifah, I bet he would not have thought this would happen either, the silence was all around, the most obvious sound is the beating heart, I’m not even sure if it’s my heartbeat or his heartbeat but it doesn’t feel normal.
It was me who had regained consciousness and pushed the person in front of me first, I quickly turned left and right to look to see if anyone accidentally saw what happened just before, when I was sure that I didn’t, I lifted my hand, wiped my lips vigorously and walked pass Ai’Saifah’s shoulder without saying anything, I am afraid that if I speak out, he will make me lose my face because of kissing someone I don’t know and this kind of guy is not good.
No!! It’s not a kiss at all, mouth touching the mouth, just only the mouth touches the mouth
I furrowed my brow firmly, recalling that moment with a dull expression that it should have ended since the last freshie night but it didn’t end, because from that day until today, Ai’Saifah and I met more often and there were always conflicts.
Initially I was worried about whether he will share the story with others or not but when I saw that no friend made a joke, I feel very relieved… I think Ai’Saifah at least wouldn’t want to tell anyone that I had kissed a man before
“Huh, what… What?”
“Why are you quiet? Phii Zon, because of what happened at that time.”
“Well… Well, at that time, how were you and him going to fight? And by chance you saw it, it might be a hidden angle, like a camera angle that you thought he and I kissed but really nothing happened.”
“No kissing, there’s nothing like that at all.”
“Phii Zon you are lying.”
“What am I going to lie for, Zol? Delete the novel.”
“The title part, it can be replaced, so it doesn’t have to connect with the two brothers secretly dating, is this ok?”
“Zol how many times will I repeat it? That Ai’Saifah and I are not in a relationship.”
“But you were kissing each other?”
“How was that not a kiss? Zol saw… Phii Zon dare to swear that he didn’t really kiss Phii Saifah?”
“Dare, go ahead.” My sister’s defiant words made me confidently accept my words, “I swear to the shrine in front of our house that I never kissed Ai’Saifah.”
“Yes.” Zol defiantly looked back at me, “Then I swears by the divine thing in this house that if Phii Zon ever kissed Phii Saifah, the heavens will let everything in the fictional Y story, including everything related to the Y in all of Zol’s rooms. To really happened to Phii Zon, amen, absolutely all!”
I looked at the person in front of me, raised her hand and vowed vigorously in spite of holding her laptop tightly in her hand
“Oath is done yet.”
“When the oath is done, Zol, delete your novel.”
“I didn’t swear to delte it, so… I will not delete it.” finished speaking, my bastard little sister suddenly stuck her tongue out before rushing out of her room
“Zol!” I tried to shout after my sister to come back to erase the novel but the response was Ai’Zol yelling to my mother that I was bullying her again
Fuck, what did I swear for?
What will I report to my teacher tomorrow? Oh oh
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